Feeling full is something i normally try to avoid. As I sit here today after spending genuine time seeking God's face and allowing him to speak to me for the first time in a couple weeks I'm ashamed to say. I realize i have been so full. Too full. But full of all the wrong things. I have been so full of stress, worry, and just worldly things that i haven't been able to be hungry for God. I haven't been happy or satisfied because i've been racing trying to find my happiness and satisfaction in things other than God. I have been shown yet again any foundation i try to stand on other than God will leave me drained, exhausted, emotional, and missing out on what Christ has for my life right now. It really bothers be to think that everyday I allow to go by where i struggle to survive and just get by is a day that i will never get back and what if i miss what God has for me. What if i miss it because I'm too busy selfishly wallowing away in current situations i'm unhappy about. At some point in my life over the past couple of days i've had to say to myself "Savannah, get a grip of your life, learn to LIVE your life, tell satan to get behind you and take control of your walk with the Lord, take control of your happiness and realize that your joy comes from the Lord!!!! Joy is something that cannot be taken away from me, the joy of the Lord is my strength!
Psalm 16:11 You have made known to me the path of life; you will flll me with joy in your presence
It doesn't say you may, but you WILL fill me with joy. I am restored today, in his presence, restored knowing that he has been faithful when I was not and that i can start over today, not because im worthy, but because he is. His consistent presence in my life is something that will never cease. Because of that I can claim the truth that I have a continual source of joy and that it comes from Christ. I can start today seeking Gods face in everything with confidence that I will find him and each time I will grow one step closer to becoming the woman he wants me to be and one step closer to becoming more like him and less like me. My prayer is that Christ will pry my finger off of my desires for my life and that I will desire God more than anything else. Anything.
until next time,
me
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